You know those days in life?
Days that define you,
made you look twice at your life,
gave you a glimpse of what heaven must be like?
that was what Jan 12, 2011 was for me.
It was a normal day in most regards.
A normal day with a dark subconscious.
You thought about it constantly,
what these people were living at this moment one year ago
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that night they had church
and it changed me.
they got on their knees and prayed
Psalm 23
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.

then in the quiet after saying that prayer, some cried out and wailed
mourning in that echoing, haunting wail
that comes from the depths of your soul
when you have lost it all
there, kneeling in the dirt under a tent, I was wrecked
with my hand around a little sobbing orphan who had lost her home and her sister
i.was.wrecked.
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but then what happened is what made me fall in love with this country even more
they stood up
and thanked God
and not in a Southern church on the corner way.
No, they THANKED God
they worshiped Him
unabashedly
With a faith that I can only wish to have someday.


Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me