to my baby,
I’ve written this blog post in my head a thousand times.
it hurts my heart to even have to think about writing this letter, this post. but I must.
you see, this blog is my home on the internet. its my heart, my business, my legacy.
and I want to remember you.
this moment, even though its the hardest I’ve ever walked through will one day pass. and I want to honor you, the hopes and dreams of you.
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We found out about you in perhaps the coolest way possible, on a RV heading back to San Francisco after a week in Yosemite.
We were with friends and spent that night by the ocean. and I thought of you. and hoped and dreamed.
because I’m pretty sure you were going to be an awesome kid with that cool of a start, don’t you think?
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Your dad thought of names, rearranged furniture so your crib had its own space
I planned how I was going to tell the world
(a video of your sister announcing it was how I was going to do it)
and we dreamed.
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I’ll always remember your sister finding out about you.
She just screeched “a brother or sister?” and jumped around.
she would have been a great sister to you.
she’s magic, you know.
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So even though you were just a hope and a dream, no more the size of my pinky, we’ll miss you.
i’ll miss you.
love, mommy
ps. God is good, all the time.
My heart hurts for you. This is a beautiful post written by a beautiful woman with a beautiful heart. Love to you sweet friend, and many prayers being lifted for you.
Beautiful post, Shannon. Brought tears to my eyes. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
Shannon … I am so sorry. I have no idea what its like to go through what you are going through but its one of my greatest fears. I have family members, close friends, and clients who have shared this kind of pain. I am so proud of you for posting about this because I think SO MANY women experience it and never talk about it. You are a blessing.
I am praying for God to give you strength to get through this and peace and comfort as well. Love ya girl.
Shannon,
I am so sorry. I had no idea. What a wonderful blessing and tragic event at the same time. You are a great mom and Lena would have been a fabulous sister. My prayers go out to you and your family.
my friend, how you find the most beautiful words at such a hard time, I see you shining brightly and what a beautiful tribute you have made to your baby here, just perfect, may God continue to Bless you in your healing inside and out,
I love ya, and Lena is the cutest biggest sister ever.
my nickname for this child is little one. i was thinking of how one day we shall see this little one and will be awestruck with joy, beauty and love. i too was looking forward to holding this little one and watching this little one become…and someday i will meet this little one and we will hold each other and we will love each other. your letter, shannon, is beautiful and i love you for it.
Shannon, this only confirms what I have always thought – you are amazing. You have an incredible light that shines around and through you – your actions, your photographs, your words, your life. This is a letter written from the most raw and tender part of your heart – the heart that loves deeply and truly and always has HOPE. Thank you for sharing your heart with me, with us – your readers and friends.
Prayers for blessings and grace to you. Love you, friend. And yes, God is Good.
My heart aches for you tonight.
{{{HUGS}}}
wow.. you have such a way with words.. all of these comments sum up everything that i would or would have wanted to say. I admire you so much.. and look up to your strength and amazingness. I love you and i will be praying for a “bandaid” on your heart. love you friend.
Shannon, I admire your strength you have. I am so sorry about your loss. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers! God Bless.
Chelsie
Much love and many prayers are with you and your family!
I am so sorry! My heart goes out to you. I will keep you, and your family in my prayers.
oh shanny, I’m so sorry you ever had to experience this. We’re thinking of you all at the Hoyt-Vinson house. If you need a weekend away, you’re always welcome in WI.
God is good you said it! Little angel spread your wings and may you reign in heaven forever and ever. You WILL meet mommy one day. Till then, God Bless and stay strong!
Shannon,
Praying for God’s comfort for you and Brad. I just can’t imagine the pain you must be feeling.
I’m so sorry about your precious little one, Shannon….you will always wonder, so many things. You will also be reunited with your child one day, and there will be lots of joyful company with you. Your poem is such a moving tribute. Thank you for letting us cry with you. Big loving hugs to you, sweet girl.
Such a sweet post – Shannon I am so sorry for your loss and I will pray for healing and love for all of your family.
I’m so very sorry Shannon. I know words don’t help much right now. But we’ll be praying that God will bring the comfort that only He can give. Sending you hugs…
Oh, I’m so sorry, Shannon. This post is beautiful, but I truly wish you didn’t have to write it. I’ll be thinking of you.
sending all of our love to you. we are so sorry to hear of your loss.
xoxo
amy & jocey
My heart is breaking for you!! Lots of thoughts and Hugs from me to you and your family.
Beautiful, sweet Shannon… It broke my heart to be away from the blog for a few day and come back to find you are in such pain. My thoughts are with you and your family and Bobby and I will be praying for God to bring healing and joy back to your lives. This is a beautiful post – I’m sitting here crying – and although I hate that you had to write it, I am in awe of the strength and courage of the heart in these words. Much love, blessings and prayers from my family to yours.
Shannon,
You have the most beautiful way of expressing such an emotional experience.
Thank you for sharing with us.
It touched my heart in a very deep way.I knew when God had us bump into each others lives, that you were an amazing woman, and this just adds to it even more.
God Bless you girl!!