before we get back to our regular scheduled program here around the bloggity, I wanted to take a minute to say thank you.

while my hurt is far from over and my emotions feel like they are in a bounce house I do know this,

that God is so good because He gave me you guys.

From my clients to my family to my friends, some of whom I only know through this great thing we call the internet.

Seriously,

I have been amazed.

and blessed.

thank you so much

for your prayers

your comments and emails

just for being there.

they have gotten me through this.

love you,

shannon

ps…some awesome pictures coming up this week and then I promise we’ll get back to some Five on Fridays and a little Mission Monday stuff too! I’ve missed them:)

to my baby,

I’ve written this blog post in my head a thousand times.

it hurts my heart to even have to think about writing this letter, this post.  but I must.

you see, this blog is my home on the internet.  its my heart, my business, my legacy.

and I want to remember you.

this moment, even though its the hardest I’ve ever walked through will one day pass. and I want to honor you, the hopes and dreams of you.

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We found out about you in perhaps the coolest way possible, on a RV heading back to San Francisco after a week in Yosemite.

We were with friends and spent that night by the ocean.  and I thought of you.  and hoped and dreamed.

because I’m pretty sure you were going to be an awesome kid with that cool of a start, don’t you think?

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Your dad thought of names, rearranged furniture so your crib had its own space

I planned how I was going to tell the world

(a video of your sister announcing it was how I was going to do it)

and we dreamed.

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I’ll always remember your sister finding out about you.

She just screeched “a brother or sister?” and jumped around.

she would have been a great sister to you.

she’s magic, you know.

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So even though you were just a hope and a dream, no more the size of my pinky, we’ll miss you.

i’ll miss you.

love, mommy

ps. God is good, all the time.